I’m nothing compared from what i used to be.im imperfect. my hair doesnt fall exactly into place, my eye liner smudges every once in a while, i know im not ugly, buti dont see anything special about me. im not depressed anymore, im over almost everything. i just get tired, of trying to act like the bubbly person everyone wants me to be, or you could say, how i use to be. i want to face the truth, i dont want to live in a huge lie anymore. i dont want to pretend something is real anymore, when its not. i dont want to pretend that nothing has changed, but it has. i just want my thoughts, my personality, my everything, my family, friends, just how it use to be. but im tired of trying to be someone im not anymore. i have changed so much. but its not like i intentionally set my myself up for this. i just went with the ‘flow’ and look where it brought me, here.they say everything happens for a reason? im still trying to figure that out. i look at myself now, and wander, who is talking. the new me? or the old me? its like my alter ego is starting to kick in. and i believe that im leaning on that side, if anything. i do have expectations for myself, but their un reachable. its unrealistic. i cant live up to them anymore.and im sitting here, confused. about the truth, because im still haveing a hard time knowing what is still really real, and what im just makeing up in my head everyday, and liveing by it. ya things have changed me, things have changed the way i look at life, its changed my thoughts, actions and whatever but i can tell you, im not fake. i dont be someone i dont want to be. because i believe there is a difference between being someone else, and not knowing who you are. because i believe that there are two sides to everyone that they listen to everyday. and from what you listen to makes you who you are. “You never find yourself until you face the truth.”
